“When you arise in the morning, think what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.”
– Marcus Aurelius
It is often said, in spiritual circles, the path to enlightenment is to let go of desire – we are to become desireless to find peace.
I say, we are to embrace our desires and our LONGING to find PASSION, JOY, EXCITEMENT, LIFE!!!!
Give voice to, accept, acknowledge, admit, and honor your innermost longing – that thing that seems so unreachable, so huge, so terrifying that you don’t even want to admit to yourself that you want it. Yeah, embrace that MOTHERFUCKER!
Have I completely lost it???
But think about it. You know that nagging pain in your ankle, neck, back, head, stomach, HEART, that you can’t explain and seems to come and go??? Or maybe just that growing feeling that your very soul is slowly dieing???
If you have a deep inner longing, a passionate desire, that you are not acknowledging, then you know what I’m talking about because that desire is trying to make itself known through your body and emotions, and it will not stop until you let it out! Even if it’s just a silent scream to the heavens, “I WANT THIS!”
If you are trying to bury your deepest desires, it fucking hurts. So let that shit out. Own it.
You’re only holding it in because you have convinced yourself, and allowed other people to convince you, that you cannot have what you desire.
So you’re afraid of it. You lock it away, and shove it down, and suppress it, but it hurts so much more to deny your desires, and you know it.
“I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.” – Rainer Maria Rilke
It feels awful to have a desire when you have convinced yourself you cannot have it; it feels joyous and exciting to have a desire and to KNOW it is already yours, and then to experience and participate in the manifestation of it.
And that is only the difference between saying “I want it BUT I can’t have it for this reason, and this reason…..”, and saying “I want it AND I don’t yet know how I will get it, but I am excited to find out!”
Seriously, we cannot be desireless. It is not human nature, or even the nature of any living being, and it would be so Goddamn boring!
We incarnated into these physical bodies to experience life! This is the adventure package all expenses paid vacation!
“What if we tried Owning Surrender by letting go? Not letting go of our dreams, our goals, our hopes, our relationships – but rather, letting go of how we think we can MAKE them happen. Having faith enough in the universe that what is meant for you will occur, and that your only job is to dream up the picture, intend it, bless it, and then to let go and enjoy the ride.”
With Love and Joyous Celebration,